Been busy

I've been so busy doing Bible studies that I haven't even been blogging on our family blog much. I have really enjoyed having emails come in daily to devote time to the Lord. I get about 10 or so each morning. I love it and it keeps me focused on Who I should stay focused on. I love devoting time to the Lord.

Serving the Lord

Today was my first day of work in childcare at WHBC. I had a great time...I really enjoyed all the little tikes that I watched. My girls also seemed to enjoy their time.
Sadie got a little jealous one time when I was holding another little boy who was crying because he didn't want his mom to leave him. She came up to me and started screaming at me, not crying, just a deep throatal scream. It was funny.
Steff had one incident where she was naughty and I had to leave the room I was in and go over and have a talk with her. I guess she even asked the ladies to take her to the restroom. She didn't do anything but she wanted to go. I guess it's a start.
I thoroughly enjoyed serving the Lord. I never thought I was the child type but the Lord told me I am so I went with it. Boy, am I glad I listened because I truly enjoyed it. I also met a whole bunch of new people and I'm thinking about finding other ways to serve. I know I don't want to add too much to my plate but I feel very gung ho about giving to Lord. He provides so much for me and I would like to give back to him. I feel wonderful when I'm in his house besides.
I know I shouldn't take on too much because there's a chance that I'll get burn out and I love my faith too much to possibly put myself in that situation. I'm thinking something simple like coffee duty to give back in another little way.
I will be working every Thursday and every other Friday for MOPS meetings and the rest of the time I'm on call. I told Christie that I'm pretty much always available unless I have an appointment.
So, I served the Lord for the first time today and I felt right at home, it was a wonderful and spiritual experience.

Feeling Guilt

I just read a really great article that I received in my email. It talked about the different kinds of guilt. I learned that there is the guilt from doing something wrong such as a sin and there is the guilt that the Enemy likes to lay on us.
I have felt this guilt from Satan. I can hardly stand it when Ryan watches football because it brings up feelings of anxiety and guilt from the days when I would always drink. It brings back all the things I did to all the people I love. But, today I learned I don't have to feel this guilt anymore. I can pray for the Lord to take it away. I never realized that it wasn't a healthy feeling. I just figured it was times like that and feelings like that that keep me from crawling in a bottle. I figured it was perfectly normal and healthy. Boy was I wrong and honestly I couldn't be more happy about it. I'd love to sit down and watch a football game with my wonderful husband and not feel anxious or shameful. And, I can...Thank you Lord for bringing this all to my attention. Thank you for loving me enough to send it, because you knew I needed to know the Truth. Thank you...

Waiting on the lesson

Well, our jeep took a crap. It had the air conditioner compressor go out, at least I think that's what it was. Anyway, I don't know what God's lesson is but I'm excited to find out. I know he has something in store for us and I honestly am not worried about how we are going to fix the Jeep but more excited to learn the lesson and see what His reason is for having something so "not good" happen to us. He always has a lesson or something in store to learn from tragedy and that's the good stuff I'm waiting for.

Filling Out The Application

I was trying to fill out the application for the childcare position and good ole Satan was doing his work and trying to make me feel like I wasn't worthy of the job and thus why fill it out. I fought his advances with the help of the Lord and I successfully filled out the application. I did it with grace and heart and I feel good about the outcome....

Filling Out The Application

While I was filling out the application for the job opportunity with WHBC I started feeling inadequate and it dawned on me that Satan was playing tricks with my mind. So, I said a prayer and strength became the motto. I had the Lord in my corner and nothing was gonna stop me from filling out that application. I did it and I feel great about it. . .

I talked to Marla about spiritual gifts and have determined that I'd like to find out what mine are. She said you do some studying and take a test type deal and that's how you find out what your gifts are. I'd like to find out how to find my spiritual gifts. I know they are used for the good of God and quite honestly I'd like to do that. Glorify God that is.

Job Opportunity

Well, today I went in to meet with Christy about the job opening in childcare but unfortunately she wasn't there due to her and her little one being ill. I have been on my knees in prayer for them and wish them a speedy recovery. I did however, get an employment packet that the devil is making me feel insecure about filling out. I have no childcare experience and he's on a rampage inside me. I know better and I can see his tricks but it still makes it hard to stop and fill it out. I pray the Lord will strengthen me and help me fill this application out.

Same Verse Twice

So, I have received this same verse two times. I think the Lord is telling me something, what do you think? The verse is Philippians 2:14-16 it reads, "Do everything without complaining or arguing., so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life."
Maybe it's because I complain too much about things aren't just right with my house and my life and my financial picture. I don't know but I know I will be recalling this verse often throughout my days. I know the Lord loves me and he wants me to be a better person and I love it when He sends me things like this.

Finding Patience in The Middle of The Night

I'm trying to be a good Christian and see the reason that God has allowed my daughter to be up so late. I don't understand why I can't get a good night of sleep and why he has allowed things to be the way they are. I trust in the lesson that I'm to learn and one day I'll be able to look back on it and understand but for now it's just rough.
I have been reading about eternity in a lot of various readings that I get via my email. Makes me wonder if God's counting my days short or something...I don't know and I don't really care if he takes me. Yeah, I worry about my loved ones but going to my mansion in the heavens-take me now, I'm ready.
I read the greatest scripture the other day one that I have been trying to work on living. It reads something to the effect of living by the Spirit because the world is evil and the Spirit will keep you pure. If you're curious of the scripture it's Galatians 5:16.

The Old Woman in My Future

I wanted to share this poem from my daily spiritual reading. It's beautiful.

The Old Woman in My Future by Ruth Baird Shaw
Someday, somehow, somewhere in time
She's waiting, I will see
An old woman, time is making
Time is making, out of me!
Will she be a sad complainer
A fretful tenant of the earth?
Or a kind, productive person
Filled with happiness and mirth?
Please be patient, God is making
Molding slowly, out of me
A shining portrait, He has promised.
Just you wait and see.
He is smoothing out the roughness
Polishing the dreary places
Filling life with joy and gladness
Pouring out His gifts and graces.
God remake me, in Your image.
I want to like her, when I see
That old woman, time is making.
Time is making, out of me.

Gal 5:16

Galatians 5:16, "Live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature." How enlightening this is. I have needed a verse to remember throughout my days when I feel like doing things that are perhaps not good enough. This verse will help me in my therapy to resolve my spending issues. I love this verse and it may become one of my favorites. How great it is that we have God's Word to guide us and fill us and protect us. If I had to take one possession out of my house my Bible would be it. It cannot be replaced and it has been my friend for many years. There are many markings in it and each has a date and an explanation of why God gave me that verse. I believe he gave me this verse to help me remember that I sin when I give into self-indulgence. His wisdom and his love surpasses my understanding but I see it on a regular basis.

First Post of Many

So I have found a place I can came experience and express my daily devotions to my Lord. He has given me so many blessing lately. Yeah, sure we are super tight on money but my sould is full. Please enjoyed reading as blog about the life changing events that take place in my life and in my heart as well.